March 2010 | the offbeat life

"I love everybody"

I wonder about people that say that.
It's because everyone I know who says that does not show love to everyone, only one person I know can say that.
You love everybody but you just sat up here & made fun of someone?
You love everybody but you're sitting up here plotting on someone's demise?
You love everybody but you're about to "beat that bitches ass"?
The list goes on.

I notice the people that say this are the same people that backstab and screw people over on the low. They are also very, very selfish. Just an observation. They're the first ones that pop up in my head in regards to being scandalous and unacceptability. Usually the first to judge and the last to really be there for someone. Again...just an observation, maybe it's different for you and yours.

I find that most, if not all of these people I know that say this are Christian and just being self righteous. Yknow, trying to appear "christ like" and because "that's what the bible says". Practice what you preach. Thanks.

The only time I've said that is when someone asked "do you love me?" & I'm sure you can guess why.

I will make this clear, I don't love everybody. It's hard for me to even say that I love someone.
I do not like everybody. I am comfortable knowing that there are people in my life that I don't wanna deal with or have anything to do with. We can co-exist but I don't like you, I'll keep it movin. I definitely expect everyone to treat me the same way. I do, however, believe in peace. I give everyone peace unless I have to defend myself in whichever way. I don't like you, but I'll leave you alone. I don't like you, but I won't cause you any harm. I don't get along with everybody and I'm content with that but I will give them their peace. Saying "I love everyone" is a stretch, a big stretch. I see the good and the bad in people.

me & her have something in common

I'll rarely blog about fashion because...well...that's so typical of me to do.
Plus everyone has a fashion blog now so there's many to count on.
Everyone that knows me knows that I have been a huge fan of Rihanna's style, lately...not so much. Too much going on or too little. But someone else has taken the cake, Cassie!! Each photo I've seen of her she's wearing something so boss. I love it.

& me and her have something in common

GOLD
I'm becoming a born-again fan of gold accessories, gaudy gold, bold gold, "i got $$" gold. In a land where every other accessory is punk rock silver chic this is refreshing, I love it, and am copping a few pieces myself. The pink & black is coming back I see! I planned to pair my gold accessories with this pink sweater/cardigan w/ black sheer chiffon sleeves that I recently purchased. It's a good look.

& did I mention I love this girl's style?

Work!

$$, dreams, and all those things

I regret rejoining facebook but the good thing about the internet is that it is a choice. I can abandon my account and never check back in like always. The fuckery is abundant. Yeah, I'll remain lowkey. My facebook is contained mostly of people I went to school with and honestly, I could care less about their status' that I can hear about from a mutual friend. The people I'm concerned about, I talk to off of facebook or haven't even added them yet.

What am I up to?
My main focus is $, school and my dreams. Establishing a better connect to get my foot in the door. Hopefully seeing NY this year. All the while trying to have fun... can't forget about the fun. Can't share too much about my "master plans" until they actually start coming alive but I will say that I know where I wanna be now, know what I wanna do, know what I have to do and who to talk to. I expect my life to be totally different by the time I enter 21, from the people I'm around to the places I've been. So that's what I've been up to: Change. Making it happen. Putting things in motion. School is paramount though.

"Don't share your dreams because a hatin ass bitch will try to fuck up your sleep."

Not a quote from me but it's very true.
I learned to not to depend on other peoples opinion on whether I can do it or not. I can't afford that. Right now, the only people I'm concerned about talking it with are those that can offer helpful feedback and give me resources. I don't care if anyone 'agrees' or 'disagrees'., that ain't enough. I've heard some people talk to me about great things going on in peoples life saying alot of negative things, just raining on that persons parade. Just keep silent while you put things into motion. Alot of you thought I was being funny when I put that quote in my away message but I was dead serious & the person that said it was too.

The thing about dreams is that the plan is not for you to stay asleep forever. But some people will try to mess up a good nap in a second. After you're done you wake up with a great vision and you make it happen. My eyes have been opened.

The world is in your hands.

insomnithoughts

Ever since I could remember I've lived with the idea that "nobody cares"
There's a lot that caused that but that's a couple of long stories

Some people really take their problems in vain
Every away message, facebook status, and tweet is about a damn problem
Never anything optimistic, never a good day
The cries get more foolish when they don't get the attention they want

Where was I going with this...

At the end of the day
Nobody cares
You can feel sorry for yourself and stay on the ground
Aint no one gonna pick you up
& if someone does get you up
it's only temporary
something else is gonna kick you down
you need to learn how to stand on your own, stand your ground, and get right back up when you get kicked down
Cause at the end of the day nobody cares
It's all on you...to love and care for yourself

Thos

Those that define themselves by what they don't do are pitiful. They play the moral police and are always "looking for a cookie" for every damn thing. This is a pet peeve of mine. I used to be like this eons ago when it did not matter & of course I was a young girl so I still had that "gimme a treat" mentality so that was excusable, but then... I grew up. Trust me, these people do not like themselves, are not comfortable with themselves, and don't know themselves. I can't imagine being the same way and in the same place as of now. Yet, I have people my age or older that act this way. This is not Kindergarten, grow the hell up! I stopped being obsessed with being a goody two shoes a long time ago.

Who cares if you don't have sex?
Who cares if you don't drink?
Who cares if you don't smoke, cuss, miss church, etc?

A lot of these people ridicule others for doing simple things, that are not hurting anyone, people that like to live. Believe me, it's jealousy. They fear they're missing out, but their so damn stubborn it's hard foe them to loosen up.

Moral of the story: If you've got it, you won't have to prep your rep and define yourself by what you don't do.

smile

Thinking about the people that are currently in my tight knit circle. There are those that are great and there are those that truly matter, the one's where if you take out of my life, I would not know some of the things that I know now , have some of the characteristics that I do, or remember such events that make up my life...but this is about them, the others, and everything else... as always.

"I'm happy for you"
To be happy for someone is truly a gift. It is not something that everyone can do. Most people cannot be happy for another person. Some fail to see the goals that their peers are achieving and the happiness that their peers are experiencing as a push for themselves, a surge of postivity, or for what it is. Some will go as far as cognitively making excuses to support their "facts" of why the person does not deserve it. To be happy for someone is most def a virtue. It takes so much out of some people to admit that someone close to them is doing big things.

I look at people who are currently in my life right now and love to see the things that are being accomplished. It feels so good to see my friends blossom into adulthood. It's amazing to see someone you grew up with get over and get through the things we stayed up on the phone all night thinking we'd never get over. We're no longer silly little girls and one by one we are accomplishing our dreams. Through thick and thin you should always try hard to keep your relationships with these types of people. There's no other people that can tell me what was going on with me then and can tell me what's going on with me now.

and i'm sleepy and lost my train of thought (watching Wayne's behind the music)