i was reading something that was recommended about signs of spiritual awakening, which is such a beautiful thing. I consider the age of 18 to be the time I first began my spiritual awakening. What I read talked about certain feelings that I have ironically been feeling over the past year or so and it explained how I was cleaning out my past, shedding, and becoming a new me. Not that I have no connection to who I used to be because although I go through changes I am still the same in some ways. I can look at myself back then and know who that was and some traits have carried on, some have not, not a lot of people carried on but still...some have, some habits came, some habits went. I am now feeling the effect and the benefit of what I set out to do with my self all along and I can say that it was a hard road because shedding that skin is not easy, it is not something you plan ahead of time to do, it comes to you as an epiphany and you begin the process. Nothing feels like "just yesterday", at least the things that do not matter anymore. Lots of things are new to me and the world around me does not look the same. Irrelevant people from the past do not look the same, I don't look at them with the same eyes, and when they see me they feel like they're talking to another. It is for the better and I am learning to trust my life. I have let go of a lot of things and am trying to change the way I think about others, also.
I'm not as consumed in my ego as I used to be which is great thing because I never considered myself an egotistical person in the first place...however, there is always room for improvement. Ego is a big issue, especially today with the emergence of social networking, so many are caught up in their image it is sickening, but I've been there too so who am I to judge. This entry is here nor there. All I know is, I am coming out of a phase that I had to go through. There will be times where I have those days but they will be seldom because I am on a new journey in general.
