i took a bath tonight

instead of a shower

i stayed in there for what seemed like an hour

it's raining outside

the water was warm

the water was calm

i got out feeling so good

i floated towards my bedroom

threw off my towel and threw myself on the bed

50 degrees and raining outside, no heat, naked, in my bed

this mysterious warmth inside of me kept me from freezing

i closed my eyes

why was i smiling?

as i started to drift into my thoughts on the way to sleep

i noticed this feeling in my chest

this thump that was dancing, i even felt in my upper back

i heard something

something i hadn't heard so loud in such a long time

i studied it

then it became a bit familiar

it was my heart beating

it was racing

thats when i knew...that i might be falling for you

that heartbeat will silence in due time

we probably won't be because you're too chicken shit to do anything

your insecurity and lack of aggression will equate to zero progression

and it'll just be a factor of what could have been

and you'll just be a fling on my list.

the end.