Sorry, don't wanna hear it.

Sorry, don't wanna hear it.

Maybe I'm just being inconsiderate.
But lately, well...for a long time now...certain people that I've decided to keep my distance with come in contact with me. I welcome them with open arms thinking maybe things have changed, maybe they have grown as a person...just keeping an open mind not quick to mentally say "great. have a nice day". & then...out of no where, ironically though, a very familiar place...comes the drama. Now there is good drama and then there's bad drama. There is drama that I have no time for anymore, drama that I consider very rude that these people expect me to find time in my busy schedule to call them just so I can hear this. That is the bad drama or the bad "news". When you ask them what is going with their life it is the same ol same ol. Love triangles, hood love, he said, she said drama. Now, everyone has one of those situations from time to time but when that is all there is to your life that is when I get disgusted. Why is it that everytime we talk it is always this. What else is going on? Are you learning any life lessons? Going through some changes? Growing as a person? What is really good? How are you growing from these situations? Would you like to find light in these situations or are you just bumping your narcissistic, self-sulking gums? Let's have something to talk about after we discuss other people. Let's talk about something other than love drama. Sadly, that's all some people, especially women ,know. If it's not gossip, it's minor relationship drama. Who are you outside of that?

So will you ever learn?

So will you ever learn?

Negative, negative.
I never remember you smiling
You never liked to smile
Don't smile in pictures, never happy
Always complaining
Each birthday or holiday when we ask what you want
Answers always nothing or to be happy
Yup. Routine, never remembered anything different.
Always doubtful
Argue with someone everyday
Trying to hit us all the time
Insults thrown weekly
When you say something positive you get looked at twice
When you do, you look like you're doing it because you have to
You try to shoot down any hope, any light, you see in us
You fuss when we receive things from that one out of pure love and appreciation because you think we do not deserve it
You think no one deserves anything because you think you don't deserve anything
And when one acts as if they do, and runs to you because they have done something great, and are proud that they can hold their head up high and they think you would be proud...you tell them why they don't deserve it
You pout all the time
It's always something from the time you walk in the door til you lay your head down to rest
We cannot hold a conversation without you constantly trying to make our opinions invalid
We cannot show an emotion without you constantly trying to make our emotion invalid
I cannot have a good day without you trying to make my good day invalid
You've told us for years that we're selfish, lazy, stupid. But in reality...you're the selfish one.
Tonight I was notified that you might be seriously ill
I went to you and tried to brighten up your horrible mood (despite the fact that you tried to pick an argument over nothing this morning) and asked you "why do you look like that?" and tried to talk to you.
Your answer was "Shit. Why not." and you rolled your eyes at me.
Your life might be in danger yet you still proceed to tear everyone down and not try to enjoy yours.
I will never be like you when I am 50.