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Re-Inspired, out of my mind, just in time

I've just been re-inspired.
I am slowly feeling myself transitioning into another phase of my life, of my self.
I am feeling ready to expose my talents a little and will indulge in them fully in regards to my major, my associates, and things I do.
2011, is not my year but it is the year that will make the next mine.
2010 was very rough on me and now is the time where I begin my healing, introspect, and self reflect. An understanding of why I went through what I've been through is coming and I am happy. Still struggling, but happy.

Music is my healer, I just wanna say that. I have been listening to lots of Erykah Badu, Maxwell, De La Soul, Eric Benet, Jill Scott lately...things that I would listen to anyway but not so heavily. And it's definitely therapeutic and sparks my writing side again, which has been muted for a minute. I still have lots of things to figure out before I evolve but I am close.

Everytime I go through a rough patch I rise from the ashes and become a better me. This has happened before, years ago, and I never thought I'd hit a bump again but I did. The good thing about experiencing these obstacles at a young age and getting through it is that I know there is a brighter day and I know that I can pass this because I have before.

This year is the year that I explore my true artistry and embrace that side instead of putting it on hold for more "realistic" things according to people who do not matter.
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2010

I died in 2010.
2010... the year I figured out I didn't know shit
The year I figured out I wasn't shit.
The year I figured out he wasn't shit, neither was he, he wasn't shit either.
The year I figured out that bitch and that bitch wasn't shit.
The evolution has been rough.
I'm just telling it like it is.

2010 was the year I departed with my 2004 to 2009 dead weight and even that 1995 overweight, dead weight, bitter, SKANK.

Blank sheet, it most definitely is. If not...damn near.
The youth, my friends, little by little, is being sucked out of my eyes.
I saw this ugly world.
Recognized my empty ambition.
Recognized my intuition.
Became a recluse
And got way too comfortable in a skin that wasn't my own.

Confusing right?

2010 was the year I got dropped on my ass from my High School mentality, the little that was left from 2009.

2010 was the year that I dined at expensive restaurants, spent time with important people, competed, felt defeated, created an action plan, went for it, succeeded...with grace...surprised myself. Doesn't mean a thing.

2010, you can stick a needle in each and every body part but I would not move because I was so numb.

2010 was the year that shit got too real.
The evolution has been rough.
I had been thrown in the middle of nowhere to find herself again
She's in 2011!
 
 
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